I could describe my life before K-pop, unexciting. I didn’t even know I have been living such boring life!
I’ve been in love with music since I was a child but I don’t have much friends to tell that about. I mean, I was punk rock, EMO even. The songs I listen to were well-written, I must say, but very depressing and I’m sure, with all the bullying going on when I was in highschool, I’m just gonna make myself even more sad and who’d even notice my agony induced death when I don’t have friends? That time I was certain. I want to change. I’m ready to come out of my shell and turn the frown on my face upside down.
Luckily, one evening in 2010, I got bored watching animal commercials on NatGeo so I switched channels. After minutes of switching channels, I stumbled upon Arirang, a Korean channel in English that promotes Korean culture. That time, Pops in Seoul was on and it’s playing Super Junior’s ‘Don’t Don’. I listened to the song and I found it really catchy. Slowly.. I put the remote control down on the sofa armrest with my eyes still hooked on the TV screen. The boys’ dancing is really good and I was so amazed by how dreamy these boys are. One member even knew how to play the violin and I am so into guys who can play musical instruments. The one I noticed most though was the guy with the red hair. The time I saw him, I felt like I’m in love! Like he’s the one. And I’m not even kidding!
And so it begins …
I looked them up online and saw this exact same picture
This wallpaper is not mine but this is my first ever K-pop wallpaper. Yay!
The next thing I did was to search for the guy with the bright red hair. Sadly, I wasn’t able to find him here so I had to rewatch the music video to distinguish who he really was in this picture. And I did manage to tell each member apart. Not only that, I found out that my favorite member’s (which now I call bias) name is Heechul. I found out he likes cats, he loves wearing pink, he loves drawing random comic strips, I found out about a lot. I found out about what each of the 13 members like doing, where they came from, what their talents are and even what can make them sad. I fell in love with this group. The group that introduced and gave me a very warm welcome to the world of Hallyu.
I want to give you every detail and I have so many things to share but I think I already wrote a lot so to make this short, I’m just gonna give out a story with 5 points of how being a fangirl changed me.
It took me places
Super Show 3 Manila
We did get to experience the Sapphire Blue Ocean
That’s me with the cat ears. Still unappealing but this is my most decent one from the outtakes. We look very different now and they’re gonna kill me when they see this.
Because of fangirling, I started going to concerts, fan meetings and conventions which I have never done before with the rock bands I adored.
It gave color to my life (literally and not)
Oooh the first issue of Sparkling mag! My high school classmates Mhaine and Lawrence gave it to me.
This is a Singaporean Mag my dad bought me.
I started wearing my ID with heechul’s laminated photo cards on it. My room that was once very plain had colorful Wonder Girls, SNSD, TVXQ, SHINee and Super Junior posters on its walls. My locker that once had a satanic-like symbol of an EMO band on it became retro pop (K-pop groups’ theme back in 2010) and stuff. I mean before, my life has been just about red and black, it was gloomy and all, but now, everything’s fun and I don’t know about other people but I like this life better.
Well hello there, hidden talents!
Me dancing with my high school classmates and intern-teacher
I already know I can sing but I didn’t know I can dance. My fellow fangirls back in highschool loved dancing to SNSD songs and because of them, I discovered my talent in dancing. To be honest, I still can’t believe they told me I’m good at dancing. ‘Cause I don’t see myself as a dancer. What’s funny is that K-pop is the only thing that can make me dance.
I found out I could draw and do graphic designing. I started making fanarts because I got a bit jelly with my sister’s works (that are superb!). I tried learning how to draw by drawing my bias’ face. And now, I must say, I can do art. I even have a deviantart account and an artwork thread on Soshified.
I’m not really a good writer but fangirling was the reason I made a blog and I’ve been writing fan fictions. I didn’t even know I can write.
I gained A LOT of friends
Hahahaha forgive me and my fashion sense. That’s me with my beast (that’s how we call each other) — First Year
And these are my other beasts! — Third Year
Oh puhretty! — Now, Post Puberty… Promise!
While I was searching online about Super Junior, I discovered a music site called Imeem (which is now dead). I joined the site to create Super Junior playlists and because of it, I discovered other K-pop artists which lead me to various fan pages there. I joined the fan pages and became friends with fangirls all over the world. Everyday after school, I’ll log on to that site and talk to fangirls from Malaysia, Indonesia, Singapore, Japan, America and other awesome countries. Some fangirls even talk to me on the phone and on web cam.
With fangirling, there’s no reason for you to be alone in high school. With it, there’s always something you can share to others. There’s always something to talk about. I was bullied in high school and because no one wants to be close with the uncool, I didn’t have friends on the start of my first year. But as far as I could remember, I was the K-pop trendsetter in class. I told them about K-pop and they loved it. I became close to some of my classmates because of K-pop which gave me a chance to know them deeper. Up to this day, they’re still my bestfriends.
I became closer to my sister
Me and my sister, we’re like cat and mouse. She’s the cat and I’m the mouse. She really hated me and she always thinks her chocolates in the fridge are never safe because of me. She hurts me physically that I could even get her arrested (LOL just kidding but yeah she’s quite violent). But again, fangirling saved us from killing each other. I told her about Super Junior and she also fell in love with them. She still hates me sometimes and still kicks me on the head but we got closer because of fangirling. Now, I can hug her without feeling awkward about it. She’ll always be scary but I love her.
Our high school days are over. Our black shoes, blouses, overly long skirts, weird hairstyles, gloomy and braggart selves, we left them when we graduated. But the experience we had in high school, the friends we made, and the fandom that changed us will be with us always while we create new memories together.
From EMO to Omo!
Accentuate the negative. (Ghost World, )